An Apology for the Negativity

Good Morning, Friends!  Sorry for the negativity the last couple days.  Not what I wanted for  January.  Michael and I are reading a book, Love and Respect, together on Wednesday nights while the kids are in Kids Connect at church, before choir.  Last night as we were reading Michael said he thinks of my mood as peaks and valleys.  I get super excited about things, but I also get super down and upset about things, there are times I've considered seeing a professional or getting on medication to normalize my mood a bit more, especially the valleys.  Michael, on the other hand, is more even keeled, he may get a little excited or a little bummed, but for the most part his emotional range isn't as great as mine, for better or worse.  I think this also can be applied to our introvert/extrovert personalities and our tendencies for spontaneity.  I'm extroverted and love to be spontaneous.  Often these qualities come across as good things...  I like being around people, I feel energized by going out, being with people, hosting people.  I like do things spur of the moment, like buying a dog or a grill, I tend to act first and think later.  Michael, my introvert, my anti- spontaneous husband, is the exact opposite.  He thinks about things to the point that I think he over thinks them, he recharges by being home in the quiet, large social gatherings make him anxious, and aren't fun.  The amazing thing is that we check and balance each other.  Michael keeps me grounded when I get too excited or upset, and I get him, occasionally, to act on impulse and figure out the details later.  Tuesday was a good day to have Michael to balance me.  I was frustrated because the basement had a bunch of pee spots and smelled horrible, well, maybe frustrated isn't the right word.  I was furious.  I was crying.  I was discouraged and felt like a horrible housekeeper and pet owner.  I felt like I couldn't do anything right and our house would forever stink because I couldn't handle my job as the person in charge of our home.  I angrily saturated the floor in baking soda and vinegar until they ran out, then I measured the stairs and entire basement living room to get a price to recarpet.  I told Michael I wanted to get rid of the dogs.  He told me no.  I continued being upset, but with no more cleaning supplies I just cried and felt like a failure for hours.  Can you see yet the range of emotion I'm capable of?  When Michael got off work he went to Lowe's where he bought a black light.  Then he spent the entire evening cleaning spots, vacuuming the basement, and steam cleaning the basement.  Acts of Service, anyone??  He called me down and took care of things because I was so emotional I wasn't going to be of any use.  That's what life's like when you're married to me.  Bless my amazing husband for putting up with me.  So like I said, usually my extroverted and spontaneous tendencies are positive, but Tuesday it was good having Michael to calm and balance me.  I love him a lot, possibly in a way he's not able to feel for me based on the ways each of us feel emotion, but he loves me more than anyone else and that's amazing.  So anyway, sorry for being negative, I'll try to do better.  :\